Saturday, April 29, 2006
THIS IS YOUR BRAIN ON STRESS
Saturday, April 08, 2006
DYING IS FINE, BUT DEATH OH BABY
When my grandmother moved into assisted living, she had to get rid of a lot of her belongings. One of the more precious of these was her constant companion, her television. My father tells me that she cried when they took it away.
That poignant story stays with me as a guide for living my life. As I notice my attachments, I try to let go, all along knowing that with or without attachment I can’t avoid the inevitable aging, and loss and finally death. But perhaps, perhaps, I can find acceptance and peace as I go through these stages.
I grasp desperately at hopeful research. I hang on every word that offers hope of maintaining a youthful brain as I age. Even if the jury is still out, and we don’t know for sure whether each bout of depression causes a “trench” in our brains to grow ever deeper… I still operate on that assumption. Along the same lines, out of a nagging fear that I will become stuck in my ways (even if I have medicinally escaped being stuck in depression).
My mother sent me an article that inspired hope, the lead went like this “A 21-year study published in the New England Journal of Medicine in 2003 found that performing one such activity-playing Risk or Scrabble, for example-just once a week is associated with a 7 percent reduced risk of dementia, including Alzheimer's. Performing more activities more frequently may cut risk as much as 63 percent”. Scrabble anyone?
I have my own way of attacking the problem. I CHANGE MY PATTERNS. I am determined to not get stuck in a rut, to become set in my ways, etc. etc. I get up on the other side of the bed, I try (unsuccessfully) to write with my left hand. I change the route I drive to work.
I strive to fill my brain up with as much information as it can hold. It seems like more just self-indulgence, more of an obligation. Kind of a "why am I here anyway” type of deal (is that a vestige of my religious impulse?). So I turn off the TV, and read a book, I tune the radio to NPR and listen intently in my car. I study topics that interest me and write about them to see if what goes in can indeed come back out. TANGENT: Many moons ago, as I paged through a fabulous book "Four Arguments for the Elimination of Television", my brother-in-law walked by and quipped "Good book, 2 and 4 are true, but 1 and 3, I don't think so". Ever gullible, I looked up and said "really"? One look at Mr. Sarcasm answered that question. Ha ha. But back to brain development. Another troubling thought: maybe this gradual inflexibility of the mind is analogous to the same in the body. There is a point in the development of an embryo where the cells are undifferentiated but at some significant juncture, they begin to specialize. They then lose some of their magic properties. Suddenly the embryo can only be female, suddenly one cell can only become a brain cell and another can only become an arm or a foot, etc. This concept, which was just another fact to memorize back when I was studying embryology, is now a hot topic in medical research and, for that matter, in politics. Enter the stem cell! TANGENT: Speaking of embryology… My favorite expression from my embryology studies, which I quipped an untold number of times over the years, was “Ontology Recapitulates Phylogeny”. The expression refers to a debatable phenomenon, that the developing human embryo sort of reenacts the stages of evolution. Thus early on in its development, the human embryo actually has gills (like frogs and fish) and then later that same embryo resembles nothing else if not a pig! Anyway, true or not, I used that expression as a badge of my educated status (aren’t I smart!). I must have said that dozens of times until one day…I actually heard what I was saying. I started to really ponder its meaning. What on earth does “Ontology” (the study of existence, often in the context of the existence of god) have to do with Phylogeny (the study of evolutionary relatedness)???. And the answer was….I had been using the wrong word all these years. The correct word was Ontogeny not Ontology. Much to my relief, the internet was full of anecdotes and explanations of others with the same confusion (814 hits to the misquote). But back to these cells…could it be that the timers that turn off everything else, will turn off my ability to learn? In fact, haven’t they already turned much of it off? Basically, even though new exciting research points to the fact that our brains really do continue to develop (even “grow” new brain cells, etc.)…I probably will never learn Calculus. Even stronger, I probably can’t learn Calculus. It is fun, even enlivening, to argue about this…especially because if you find evidence that you can learn “X” then it seems like you are close to proving that you aren’t going to die. Yes my brain is still flexible, yes, yes, I am developing, I’m not aging, I’m not going to die. Whooo hoooo! Oh please don’t pop my bubble. TANGENT: I wrote about this topic from another angle (in These Are the Good Old Days" But still….in the end, even if I beat the odds, have a better quality of life, write a novel, run a marathon, paint a masterpiece….at 70, play scrabble every day, won’t I still cry when they take away my television set? Of course I will.